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im a dead person inside ,

with no more emotion anymore

really feel like burst out all my tears and giving up real soon

i cant hang on there anymore

im only myself whenim alone ,

if not i have to wear a mask to tell ppl that im ok ..

but actually in not ok

yet i dont dare to tell any ppl

thats y i write it here

going thru all this im been push to my limit to stop there not doing anything

its like im really dying soon

its like im really into depression

and stress

this is not what i want

i know myself i really cant go on anymore

im been forcing myself everytime

anyone pls help me .

i know no one can help me anymore

but i really feel like giving up ..

no one actually knows how i feel inside

im a emotionless guy inside now

how long cant a rope be burn till its finished?

thats how long i cant stand..

i love you all!

my baby edmond my mum my frens n those who i love!

i really wish u were ll by my side all the time to give me tat little strenght

i will take good care

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 7:41 PM

MY DEAR DALE! AND MY DEAR FRIENDS!!!!

GOODBYE!

SEE YOU ALL WHEN I COME OUT!

MUST MISS ME

BECAUSE I WILL MISS YOU ALL TOO!!!!!!!

ZZZ...

NOTHING TO SAY

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 8:02 AM

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 5:18 AM

THE ADAMS FAMILY THEME

THE BOYBAND SERIES

THE INDIVIDUAL SERIES

THE ROMANCE SERIES

THE CAT FIGHT SERIES

THE GIRL BAND SERIES

MIX SERIES

THE BROTHERHOOD SERIES

BEST FRIENDS SERIES

hmmm its been quite a day , due to lack of space and time

we had no choice but to just take a simple shoot today

and also because of me taking part in this shoot

some of the photo is taken by my dearest photographer GERALD LIM!

its been a hot day too

hope everyone is happy with the result , even though it aint perfect but

the fun its there ,

and everything is not gonna replace our friendship and any other things

hope i will be fine in there !

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 2:01 AM

dont think we watch porn ...

we are not , this is a book of arts ...

is just one page of this photo ..

so we dicided to play prank on those people ..

so i open it up , see whether people will thought it was a porn magazine ...

so 1 uncle came , he quicky take e book to read

a lao ah pek ..very pervert face !

another time it was a girl, the girl reaction was ..

wow whats that , so she took the book and see the ttle for awhile then put back again.

i go open it up again ,

then one guy with a friend walked passed then his eyes like pop out like tat ..

but never take the book ..

the last but not least ..

there is one guy .. he saw the book .. he never care to see or what ..

he go there close the book then go le !

haha

both of us at there hehe haha de

today we went swimming with willy only!

and he never bring extra boxer so never swim, lol

wa u see edmond got shen ci de!

lol , we look sweet hor? hahahahhaha!

both of us the hair very messy

see his nerd oldies hair!

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 11:33 PM

to all my readers:

im going in NS on 12 june 2009

which means i left 11 days

and yet it feels like nothing is going to happen!

NO NO NO!!! IS ALOT OF THINGS GOING TO HAPPEN FOR ME!!!

and yet what i expected is friends started going out with me

there is one guy which also enters the same camp as me..

because of his enlistment ,

he celebrated his birthday for 3weeks !!! 3WEEKS!!

every friends start to ask him out , and all started to "an wei" him

cause he is another guy who scare of NS!

what about me?

eh no leh ! i got nothing!!!

i must cook things for them then slowly invite them to come

must plan my own outing for them to slowly decide whether they want anot

must do my own thing

everything myself

and what do i gain? eh .... just 2 or 3 people going out with me ..

what can i do ..

told alot of people i wasnt gonna enjoy inside because of all stupid reason!

and before i go in my dream come true .. it happened..

but nevermind ..

THE CONCLUSION:

i never thought it will happen

i guess i dont have to mood to gather any more outings..

and decided to give up asking on them

and just spend my 11days like that..

i want i go out

i dont want i dont ...

im not angry , im not happy either ,

but kind of disappointed

but is ok !

now i can go in without worries of my friends

they are always busy

nah , dont want to care..

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 9:55 AM

me n edmond , behind is dinosaurs exhibition
we went to cartel to eat, this was the club sandwiches.. nice nice nice

this is my ice latte! nice wor!

this one is edmond de ,

forgot the name , but it was a mixture of alot of stuff

nice though

our TIC TAC TOE DISH!

with cheesy fries normal fries and potato wedges

it was fun going out !

and also tiring day

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 9:50 AM

inside e oven!!!! freshly baked!
before oven!

i made 17 box of this kind for all my friends , as some sort of farewell gift
on the day hanyong,martin,jia hao,meiyi,veron,jiali,julian,andrew,alvin,treven,zuolin,gerald,jian bin,cason came to my house that day , it was quite a large scale gathering la ...

this is a random picture , we went to taka to shop around

POSTED BY YOUDE! AT 9:39 AM